perfectly content.

happiness can never be brought, it I’d obtained through the simplest of things, a kiss, a laugh or a moment of complete solidarity. whenever a moment passed where you are concerned about your financial wealth or material possessions. don’t worry, they didn’t lie when they said … the best things in life are free.

Every choice you made, every right & wrong roads you walked along lead you to where you are standing today. Did we make the right choices? did we hold on to things that should have been let go, & did we let go of things we should have grasped firmly with both hands.  either way, regrets or none. all the decisions, all these choices. opportunities you passed up. they all added up. just like mathematics, every turning point, became the equation. and where you are right now, thats the answer. youre the answer, you in this moment. thats the answer. so what answers are you looking for? because look at yourself in the mirror. you are the answer you’ve been looking for all along. 

she’s filling a space that cant be filled. trying grasp hold of something, anything, to numb the pain. but, these feelings of warmness, won’t heat that ice cold feeling she still holds inside her chest.  she distorts one emotion, trying to make it the other. because no love, no matter how great, will fix the love lost. 

day to day. not a thing changed. she still peered in the mirror every morning, with her nose just inches from the mirror surface, glancing into her own eyes… though she could not remember the person she was just six months ago. she had been tested, her morals play played with. she may have given in at her weakest points. her character hindered underneath the pressure of it it. yet she was still there, not entirely the same person she was previously. but she was still herself.  she was quickly taught that you can’t walk in the same pair of shoes forever. she had learned. she learned to adapt to the changes, good or bad. she acknowledged the good times when they were around, and accepted the bad times when they appeared too.  less and less, she stopped missing what had been. & starting dreaming of what was yet to come…